JUST MEMORIES IN THE PAST,

every day, night, or every time i always feel so alone. dunno what am i feel .
i think i miss sumone, my ex .............. but no ! stop thinkin about the past , i won't remember bout it.
as you know it was hurt me and until now it still hurt me .
 but i think hurt or broken heart may be everybody ever feel like that, that's not only  me who's feel the bad bad bad and verry verry bad feel.
this is the first time i ever had , my felt was so blue every day yeah i know i feel so deep and blue until now,

every day, time, where , i always remem him , but im swear i rili wanna forget you, but my i miss you so much
do you know what i feel ?
I FEEL SO RILI RILI RILI BLUE .
my lovely boyfriend go away from me , and after that he in relationship with her new girl and the girl in the past she disturb me with my ex. and my boy broke up with me and a week after he broke up he IN RELATIONSHIP WITH HER.

ya ya ya you know whaaaat i feel ? every day and every night i dreamed bout him and wish that you were mine,  everyday i feel like it ! but the real it's NOTHING .

I WAS THINK THAT THE WORLD IS DARK , DARK , DARK LIKED MY HEART.
cud you think , you very very love ur boy friend,  and a week after you celebrated his birth day
then he said  "WE WEREN'T MEANT TO BE , SO WE MUST BREAK UP "
YEAH YOU KKNOWWWWWWWWWWWWW THAT I JUST CRIED, CRIED EVERY DAYY !!!
I FELR IT WAS A NITEMARE FROM ME,
I ALWAYS  SAID "PLEASE WAKE ME UP FROM THIS NITE MARE "
but, i must be strong , so strong like a tarzan maybe, this real life is very make me so desperently and make me so sick !!!!!!!!

I WANNA WAKE UP FROM MY NITEMARE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT ITS REAL LIFE !!!!
UNTIL NOW I ALWAYS FEEL BLUE IF MISS HIM

yeah but i believe KARMA RULES , you know  ? karma heppen when you did hurt to another and you will feel the same hurt from another person or the same person .

this is my unlucky love story, check it out ,

i was in relationship with my boy since 9 febuary 2010,
yeahhhhhhi rili happy coz i've boy, i always happy and smile everyday, i know he is  very romantic ^^
he always call me honey, yeahhhhhh wahahhaahahah
but i often angry to him , i always jealous and angry to him buty whatever i love him so much
we ever had three times break up, and we always together again coz we love each other and it was very very very crazy in love .
july, yeah july we were in 11 grade senior high school. we had new friend yeaah like it's normally heppen when you move class from 1o grade to 11 grade it was happy, and it's rili rili happy when we were together :)
it was 5 mounth he was belongs wif me :)
suddenly he told me , he had new friend , it was a girl and he said he hate her because her attitude or sumthin,
uhmmm, i just said ohhhhhh, and gave him sum advice. after that when i opened his facebook i was read that he wanted to gone with her and with another friends and they wud go when satnite,
 yayayaaaaaaa taht good, good to made me feelin angry and MORE , MORE AND MORE JEALOUS !!!!!
HOW'S NOT  ? YOUR BOY WANNA GONE WITH ANOTHER GIRL WHEN SATNITE
 i rili angry you know that , and he always made me smile and made me believe him ,
he told me that he wanted to knew her by his friend , yeahhh i believe it ,
after that many problems came to our .
one day when i was datin with my boy, i opened my boy handphone and i read that MANY TEXTIN AND BBMIN FROM HER , and we of course angry again, but he promised not do the same again, okay .
and he did it again , he did hurt my heart again . he still texting with her. and made me so desperently in love and he was lemme down , he said he never do the same again he said this time wud be so rite but when i was find he do the same again, i just speechless, you know before that i saw he sent a message from facebook to her, he wrote ' I LIKE YOU "
you knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww i rili so deep :(
he turnin me so blue , he always did the same thing . i dunno he lie or no ? but i love him , he said if i loved him i must believe what his said. yeahhhhh he always lies me for many time,
after that i said "YOU WANT ME OR WANT HER ?! LET'S CHOOSE YOUR CHOISE !! PLEASE CHOOSE I TIRED TO FEEL LIKEN THAT !"
he choosen me , he said he wanna make me happy, he rilli sorry to me, he rili wanna change his self, he love me and he won't if me go away from his. and i did it liked his. i loved him so much so i gave my sorry to him ,
and he promised that he dont want to contact as a afriend with her, cos i told if you choosen me , dont ever to contact as a friend with her, or i'll lettin you go.
so he rilli rilli wanna changed his self he rili promised to me , he dont won't if i gone away from he .
until when i celebrated his birthday . i surprised him. i came to his house with bring a present and a birthday cake with candles it's 1-6 . i rili wanna made him happy, because i rili love him until my last.
i said i love you in the past, now and future. he still slept and i entered his room with birthday cake in my hand , i woke up him, and he so surprised by me . i rili happy :)
after that i feel i wanna if he letting me go because i think he has canges in his self.
but a week after that , we angry again with a little problem.
but i didn't want if this problem became a big problem but he speechless to me, he didn't call me, he didn't send me a message for 3 a days , i feel so deep and so sick .
but when i saw his facebook, he wrote on the girl who was disturb me and my boy,
yap that heppen again. he and her playing facebook together write on their wall each other, but he promised me he didn't contact her as a friend but he was playing facebook with her and but he didnt told me his self for 3 days.
in 24 september 20 : 45 pm he sent me a message that we must break up now !!!
AND A WEEK AFTER WE HAD BROKE UP , HE IN RELATIONSHIP WITH HER !!!!!

YOU KNOW WHAT AM I FEELIN UNTIL NOW ?
I JUST SMILE UNTIL NOW ,
THIS HURT STILL FEELIN TO ME UNTIL NOW, SUMONE WHO'S YOU RILI RILI LOVE TO HIM, BUT HIM CHOOSEN TO BREAK UP WITH YOU AND CHOOSEN TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH ANOTHER GIRL .

THANK FOR MEMORIES :)